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"Howdy Y'all!"

Looking at this picture makes me laugh. I hope it brings as many smiles to everyone as it has to me. I love being this kid's mom!

My New Blog Title

Most of my friends that have a blog, have a name for it. I have thought for a really long time if it was something that I wanted to do, and if I did it, what would be my theme or name. I'm going to admit to everyone today in this blog my weakness in life. I worry too much about tomorrow. I dread the next day, fearing what it will bring and how bad it will affect me. As you all know, my job as a Surgical Technician is very demanding. It's hard when you work with 20 different surgeons in 20 different fields and there are 20 different cases that they all do. When I know what my assingment is for the next day, most of the time all I want to do is go into my room, shut the door and hide under the covers until my alarm goes off in the morning as the tears stream down my face because all I want to do is stay at home with my little boy. I can't deal with having to fix dinner or giving Carson a bath, or even playing with him. I just want to go hide. We are all faced with trials in our lives that we all need to learn how to deal with. I am one who has been stuck in this trial for quite some time and I really believe I almost have a habit of not wanting tomorrow to come. Here's an issue that is something that has been a trial for the past few months. Dave and I have a decision to make. If we buy a home, I continue to work and be unhappy and we can't have another baby because my mom won't babysit anymore if we do. That is totally understandable. I don't even know if I could handle 2 kids! She has been so awesome to watch Carson for free so we don't have to pay for a babysitter. With her health conditions, it's hard for her to watch Carson as it is.

But, if we don't buy a home, we can have another baby, but not have a home. I hate living in a small apartment. I wonder which is more important. I believe that today we live in a society run by satan, forcing mothers out of the home to work because everything is too expensive. I sit there holding Carson sometimes and wishing that moment doesn't end, not wanting to face that issue. That is where my new blog title comes in. Living in the moment. President Monson's talk last conference in October of 2008 titled "Finding Joy in the Journey, he states, "This is our one and only chance at mortal life -here and now. The longer we live, the greater our realization that it is brief. Opportunities come, and then they are gone. I believe that among the greatest lessons we are to learn in this short sojourn upon the earth are lessons that help us distinguish between what is important and what is not. I plead with you not to let those most important things pass you by as you plan for that illusive and nonexistenct future when you will have time to do all that you want to do. Instead, find joy in the journey-now." He also goes on to read a quote from The Music Man that says, "You pile up enough tomorrows, and you'll find you've collected a lot of empty yesterdays." I often think that Pres. Monson's talk was just for me and no one else, but obviously there are a lot who have this issue or else he probably wouldn't have spoken about it. I always tell Dave that life doesn't go as I want it to go. I always say, "if it were up to me, this is what would be different." I can't do that anymore. I just need to live in today and forget about tomorrow, until it happens. I need the old guy off of the Wedding Singer to put his arm around me and tell me, "everything is going to be alright." For all of you who have read to this point, thank you. I needed to get that off of my chest. I hope that if you are dealing with the same problem or issue, even in a different way, that you'll be able to be a little touched by this blog.

Happy Valentine's Day

I just wanted to tell everyone how awesome my husband and my little boy are! I had the best Valentine's Day. We had fun decorating cookies for a lot of Carson's little friends. I actually made a little cookie especially designed for Carson. Dave and I each got Carson something. Dave got him a Mickey Mouse chair and I got him "Be My Valentine Charlie Brown". Then I dragged Dave (literally) to Confessions of a Shopaholic. I liked it a lot. Dave on the other hand, didn't really, but that's okay. Since when do guys like chick flicks? Then after Dave and I got back to my parent's house to pick Carson up, Dave told me to wait a while at my mom and dad's since we drove separate cars so he could get something ready. When I got home, there was a candlelight lasagna dinner with breadsticks and a yummy Ceaser salad with sparkling cider. Dave got me a Soduko book (I am a nerd, but I love it) and an itunes giftcard. I've been updating my ipod with lots of music that I can run to when the weather gets better. Carson got me a water bottle so when I actually excercise, I'll have one. I got Dave the Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives book with recipes and restuarants that you can visit when you go out of town. He loves that show on the Food Network. Here are some pictures.

Here is the Mickey Mouse Cookie I decorated for Carson. It's not the best, but Dave and I had fun doing it! Carson recognizes who it is and that is all that matters! Dave's mom, Peggy brought us home a Mickey cookie cutter when she went to Disney World.

Here is all of Carson's little gifts. Spoiled kid! Dave didn't know that I had gotten him the book and I didn't know that Dave got him the chair, so yeah. Nana and Papa bought him a plate, bowl and cup for Valentine's! Thanks you guys! We need stuff like that for Carson. My parents got him a cute card, but I left it at their house. :(

Here is the two boys drinking their drinks after filling up on yummy lasagna. It was so nice not to have to worry about dinner, but if you ask Dave, he thinks I never worry about dinner since I never have it ready by the time he gets home from work.

Cute Pictures

I found this picture today in an email that my sister-in-law Angela sent me while I was looking for a recipe she also had sent me. This is my favorite nephew named Jackson! He's so cute! I'm so lucky to be his aunt. What a smile!

I also found this picture of Carson and Maile at Nana and Papa's Halloween Chili Dinner. Thank goodness Maile can put up with him. It made me laugh. She is so cute with Carson and she is my favorite niece named Maile.

Laundry

After spending the day folding the family's laundry, Carson had his own way of doing things. I actually like his idea better. I know it would save me a lot of time! Just shove all of his clothes into one of his toy buckets. I just had to share. It was so cute! Hey, and it kept him quiet and busy for about 5 minutes. I didn't hear him beg me to watch "Dot Dog" for 5 whole minutes. What bliss!